Wednesday, 12 November 2008

• Realizing I Was Wrong

  

  I've been doing a lot thinking lately and I've come to realize that I've been in the wrong about a lot of things when it comes to relationships. For example, in my previous relationship I failed to give the relationship a chance. Me and my ex had the best of times and the worst of times, but the thing was I never fully explained what my issue was in the relationship. My issue was growth.
  
  Truthfully, I didn't allow myself to grow from the relationship. I was afraid to let him care for me, so I constantly pushed him away. My self-doubts made it hard for me to listen to his feelings. Basically, I acted as if I didn't deserve him, so I ended it before he could realize how I truly felt. The more I think about it, the more I regret my decision. Deep down, I wanted that chance to work out our issues and continue being together, but I just refused to put the necessary work into the relationship. The funny thing is he's the most understanding guy I know. But like I tell my sister all the time: "you gotta deal with you before you deal with someone else." Too bad I couldn't take my own advice. 
  
  3 1/2 months after our breakup,  I  know now he didn't deserve that. I am grateful that he continues to love me, despite our relationship ending. The truth is I love him too. I just needed the time and  the courage to allow him to love me in return. If he'd take me back, I'd go. I care about him that much.

  Have your feelings/issues ever get in the way of a relationship? What happened?

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